It is so loud.
I tell my self that I am going to get to work on homework as soon as I get home, but it’s too loud.
I buy ingredients to make a healthy meal that I know will make me feel good, but it’s just too loud.
I get ready to go to the gym and workout. I can’t. It’s so loud.
I cry and mourn my loss of motivation and promise myself that I am going to stop wasting my life away laying in bed. It’s still so incredibly loud.
I have a lot of bills to pay and I know I could just work more, yet it’s really loud.
How do you change your life when that voice in your head is just so loud?
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I have the same problem. I try to keep myself so busy that I don’t have time to listen to the voice. Making it so someone else depends on you to do something or be somewhere helps out a lot, that’s why so many people have much better gym attendance if they go with a buddy. My job lets you pick which days you want to work and when you want to come in, so I always sign up for the most amount I can get on second shift and that’s my schedule for at least 3 months. I’ve yet to find a way to motivate myself on the healthy meal thing. I’ve tried not keeping junk food in the house, but I just end up ordering a pizza or going out. My advice would be to commit yourself to things in a way that you can’t back out from, because other people are counting on you. It’s a great motivator, I can waste away my time, but I can’t waste someone else’s without the mother of all guilt trips descending down upon me.
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This is a great metaphor for what it’s like in so many peoples heads. Mine included. It takes so much effort and will power to do the simple things and I get so upset with myself because it’s so hard. The healthy thoughts can’t even be heard because the other voices scream too much. Thank you for sharing this.
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This was a nice and relatable post. The repetition really gets in your head.
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